So, I have a job interview on Friday.
As a writer, I wouldn’t normally be so jazzed about having a real job – we creative types thrive on the freedom to do whatever we like, whenever we like – but recently I’ve been seeking a little more structure.
I’ve had to ask myself how much it really matters if I write and publish my first book right now, and if it might not be better to make a little real money to slip into the gigantic tu-tu clad piggy bank in Claire’s nursery (her college fund). I’ve had to consider what it might be like to lose my writing to motherhood, versus what it might be like to lose my writing to said “real job.” I’ve had to ask myself if losing my writing is really an option at all.
As I’ve pondered these things, I’ve found I am also increasingly open to surprising alternatives: that I might become a more productive, motivated writer in the snatches of time that may still exist; that I might mother more joyfully and revel in Claire’s day-to-days more fully; that it may actually be possible to be a creative writer while living a structured life. None of these scenarios allows me to lose writing, but gives it a fuller experience in which to soak.
For these reasons, I think it wise not to slam the door on this opportunity. One never knows what might be at hand.
The job is at a Presbyterian Seminary. For twenty hours a week, I would be a writing instructor for Master’s degree candidates, evaluating their papers, sermons, theses, etc. I am of the faith but I’ve never really weighed that heavily into theology. My belief, though sound, is, like the rest of me, creatively processed and expressed. I’m a feeler.
But what I really like about the job is that it would give me the opportunity to keep learning – something I love – and that it might open a new window in my soul. More than that, this job would put me in the middle of a place that (I think) needs someone like me. The Christian faith badly needs clear, compassionate communicators. And then, there is the tugging at my sleeve: I’ve been entrusted with this writing gift; in order to be a good steward of it, I am less compelled to hunker down within myself and more compelled to share what I’ve learned for the benefit of others.
There is a good possibility the Seminary will not want me, and I say that not as a means of defense or false humility but because it’s true. In that case, I’ll take it as a sign and get to work on a new book project. There is a YES in every NO.
Wish me luck!
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will be praying for you friend…..